“Today a young man on acid realized that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves. Heres Tom with the Weather.”
I wanted to post about my Christmas with boyathome before the new year!
Daniel is one of those boys who wears his shoes until they literally fall off his feet and was in desperate need of some new style sneaks, so I got him these Cornforths from Aldo that he had tried on months ago and said he loved, so he wore them around my house for a few hours very excitedly!
Knowing full well that I’m not much of a fan for the holidays and I hate surprises with a passion, he went to a lot of trouble to be as boisterously surprising as possible, trying to make me guess every day what he had gotten me. There were many groans of disapproval on my part.
But alas, he outdid himself. Firstly, there was a box sitting delicately under my tree with a little note that read “Hidden in your home are your gifts in waiting, everything you need to find them is inside of this box.” I scowled at him and he smiled.
So I unwrapped the box and opened it up, only to find that inside there were hundreds of little pieces of paper scrunched up into balls. I dug through it and found some tiny chocolates and a paper just like the rest, only it was coloured pink. I opened it up thinking it will be a clue, but of course not..
I glare at him and he laughs his maniacal laugh.
132 (maybe 1/3 of the paper balls) later, I found my next clue which read, “Is the top really the bottom?”
I looked at him quite confused, turned it over and began tearing it apart until I found a card that read our personal story.
Right underneath that was what looked like a coupon for the Delta Hotel in Toronto. I stared at it for a few seconds not quite sure what to think, then peeled it off the card and opened it up.
Two tickets to Childish Gambino on March 24th. I nearly cried but I hugged him tightly and smooched his face a hundred times. He makes me feel so damn important and happy! What a very merry Christmas it turned out to be.
..to any one that understands that feeling; when you feel really healthy - your skin color is good, you don’t want to throw up, your head isn’t aching, your heart is at a normal speed, and when you stand up too quickly you don’t want to kill everyone around you or pass out and die. You feel great, you love it, but then you know how well it is and you want to poison yourself; smoke cigarettes, drink too much coffee, hit your elbow against something so you become outraged, bite your lip more than you should, take the knife and instead of putting it in the drawer, find out what color your blood is when exposed to oxygen..
Born in pain. Forged in pain. Bound to pain. The primal brain reeling from terror, will seek pain. The analgesic release of rough sex, of childbirth, of rape, of kidnap, of love, of assault, of peril, is chemically the same. In the face of perceived Death intense pleasure will mimic intense pain.
It’s not supposed to interpret the idea of something like schizophrenia if that’s what you’re insinuating. It’s supposed to be your own voice. Hearing your thoughts and succumbing to them, whatever they might be. Sometimes if you think bad or good things often enough they take over your body and you become them. It’s about changing and growing, having failures and ambitions, feeling fear and lusting. It’s about you becoming that voice. There is no indication whether it’s a positive or negative transition.
You know that ringing sound that you will perceive when you are in a very quiet area? Some people say this is an auditory-illusion brought about the ear’s inability to detect frequencies below the threshold of the human senses. This is completely wrong. That ringing covers up something else altogether. If you are quick, patient, and maybe a little lucky, you will be able to hear past the ringing. What you will hear are voices whispering to each other. They will silence themselves quickly but with practice, you will become more adept at catching and interpreting what they are saying. You will hear things of the past, the present, and the future. However, you must be careful. Because there is no such thing as a voice without a body.
And when you start noticing them, they will start noticing you.
Did I just watch the trailer for Prometheus, the prequel to Alien? Yes, yes I did.
Am I more excited than ever before? Yes, yes I am.
Charlize Theron, Michael Fassbender and Ridley Scott oh my loooord!
Apparently the dress in British Columbia was the one they accidentally sent a double of, and my actual dress is here in Ontario and I will be getting it tomorrow (only including duty taxes thank goodness) and if it doesn’t fit I get a fulllllll refund.
I’m so much less stressed out, sighs of relief all around!