Tonight is my birthday, and for the first time in years I had an amazing one, surrounded by good people, good drinks and good conversation.
I remember the last birthday I had that was good is the only actual one I can remember at all, it was exactly a decade ago and our apartment had a party room where we had piñatas and all sorts of fun times.
A decade… That’s almost sad isn’t it? That’s not what I’m looking for - pity or anything, but it’s just a sad thought, it makes me grateful for tonight.
I can’t believe that sooo many people showed up, and were all so sweet, kind and giving.
Despite that, there were many who weren’t there that I wish could have been, and I’m sure that the majority of them had their reasons, because there’s no need to get upset about things that can’t be helped, either way I’m a bit disappointed in them and that’s a shame.
I feel like a blog is here for this reason, voicing my opinions so that I can personally feel better about them without being judged, because a blog is like a diary.
Anyways, it’s just surprising that I was around people tonight that I’ve known for a few months instead of a few years.
I’m thankful no matter what - All you need is love right?
2766) I get scared all the time. I can't believe I am amazing. I can't believe that anyone could see anything in me. I can't believe anyone could love me. I am terrified that if I let people in, they will leave. And when they leave they each leave with parts of my heart. Eventually I'll have nothing left. I am too used to being hurt. I think it is going to happen all the time, because it does.
I wish my house had delicious fattening tasty treats.
I wish people didn’t waste my time.
I wish I didn’t have an ear infection, sore throat and headache.
I wish I had everything figured out.
I wish I didn’t have to wish for things.
Also, Harvey has become determined in keeping me company in the bathroom while I get ready after a shower. He’s also taken an extreme interest in how the sink works, he really enjoys watching me show him that pushing up on the handle makes water come out faster or slower depending on how far you push it up and tried it for himself.
My little genius.